i’m cool. i didn’t eat chocolate today. been hooked on it for the past two weeks. i worked out to that too. tomorrow’s a new day.

these past two weeks to tell the truth have been like hell for me. i can’t ever seem to catch up. i can’t seem to get ahead. i don’t know where my future is headed. there’s a lot of uncertainty. i can sell my house back home and then my worries would be settled, for the time being any way. but that’s the one thing that i have to my name. the one thing i got to show for. i don’t have the money or time to live a carefree life like i did for the past four years. reality has set in. the pressure comes from trying start a future not only supporting myself.

i wish the decisions came easier. i know what i don’t want to do. i just won’t be satisfied going back to a 9 to 5, day in and day out the same old thing. if i was solo i wouldn’t have this pressure that i do. i won’t give up easily. but this is my biggest challenge yet.

put some music on…

[Raekwon - Surgical Gloves]

  ..pY[不會放縱的女孩子，那種多好啊..]Rb..

妳是開玩笑的吧？我對妳沒有同情心感，我臨在幾百人的面前演講妳敢跟我吵架，妳明明知道我這個感性的人可不會掩飾自己的感情，還不支持人家而要我演講之前討好妳再求求妳給我加油。有好幾次啦！